While I recall all the words you spoke to me, can't help but wish that I was there back where I'd love to be

Well, hello everyone . Been not updating for almost 2 weeks , I'm sorry because I was quite busy and then I fell sick and then I just don't feel like blogging but yeah whatever, I am here now . 

Anyone familiar with the title ? Dear God from A7X . Brings back memories tho . I opened a friend's blog and suddenly heard this song, he put up the VC there and now I keep on repeating it . Sad, and all of the sudden I realize that I am missing the old times . The time when he went to PLKN and we were crazy over this song . Ok stop, that's not what I wanted to think now but thing is, he called just now . 

I was quite surprised because my phone rang ; I heard Sejauh Mungkin from Ungu . I assigned that ringtone to Medan's house number like 2 years ago . I picked up and we talked . Nothing much , I think we might be missing each other but who am I to tell . We used to be together everyday everynight for 4 years and were apart now, we barely talk to each other . Almost all conversation made were to blame one another and just to show the hatred . Or maybe I'm wrong, I never hate but what about him ? After all the words that came out of the mouth, I am hurt . But again, knowing him for years, it's something that I can say I'm used to . Doesn't matter, but there's one word, still lingering in my head because it wasn't something that I expected he would say to me . 

But then
Don't feel guilty
Just forget it

I AM OKAY, for whatever happen as I said to you .

My only fear now is I might not be strong enough and I will fall again, and fall for you . It is not easy to hold back, eventhough you know that you're strong enough . Sokay, I will always be strong . No worries . It's normal that you'll be reminising the fond memories once in a while . It's okay to think about evertyhing all over again once in a while . It's common when you get off the track once in a while . But after that 'once in a while' , get back to where you should be . 

Bye bye , Loves . 

P/S:

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold when our hope begins to fade

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find . 
(This is for you, yes you. )