Everybody is watching you, everybody is watching me too

I'm a Gorgeous Geek

Good mourn, Loves.

Anyway, thanks Farah Najihah.

So hard to be, so far away.

Morning.

I feel like I'm losing sparks in writing. I've been trying to post something for few days but I will always end up turning off the pc and do something else. I don't know. Maybe the pressure of the exams made me this way. I'm alone in my room. Should have been sleeping by now, but I'm still trying my best to write something. A short update will do. I hate the thoughts that keeps lingering in my head nowadays. The person to be exact. Hope it will fade away as soon as possible because it's making me sick. I'm having Malaysian Economy paper on Thursday and I am totally upset with my current performance for the paper. I'm hoping for at least a B for the paper, but I doubt that I could have it that way. I just can't penetrate into the wall of the subject. I was told that the paper is an easy paper and it's easy for us to score. Knowing my lecturer, I haven't got a chance to even believe what they told. Blame me, I don't know what else to do. I'm a person who focus in class and did not study after class unless for examination purpose. What am I suppose to do? I need to rest my mind. 

 I'm half glad half unhappy.

We'll meet again, Loves.

I think I am moving one step forward as to 26 & 27.

Nothing happened, just the stupid thoughts.

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold, buzz like a bee, just the thought of you can drive me wild !

Kacau betul lah ! 

Baru bersegamat, eh silap, 

baru bersemangat nak update blog tiba tiba nak terkencing.

Sebentar ya Mr A B C D.

Back. 

Phewww :p

Exam mood is on yawww ! :D

As always, last minute preparation is soooo me. 

This morning ada paper Finance 329 ; Investment Management.

In 2 days saya cuma tidur 8 jam sahaja.

Itu pun satu jam setengah sahaja tidur untuk hari pertama.

Selebihnya tu tidur di hari kedua, mabuk terus !

Paper ni masa Test 1, sorang je in my class lulus.

Second test, 6 orang tak silap including me, Alhamdulillah.

Tapi, paper pagi tadi ?

Pass ke tak ? Pass ke tak ?

Carry mark macam Curry Mak je ! Hahaha

Biarlah, tawakal sahaja lah kerana dah berusaha kan.

(Ceh, padahal tak sungguh sungguh pon.)

This Tuesday gonna face Marketing pula.

Okay kot this subject, kena score A !

If not pointer drop

DROP

DROP

DROP

Oh noooooooooooooo !

NO !

Paper lain semua kena score in order to back up paper Finance ni !

Ingat tu kawan-kawan ?

That day dah ambil semangat exam form En you .

Exam month ni teringat . . . 

Kenangan manis kau dan aku, lalalala. (tak tau lirik dah)

Haha :D

Bukan teringat apa, 

teringat time eS Pi eM ^^

Ada orang jaga,

Bagi supplement Pharmaton sebotol,

Dia share dia punya yang mama dia bagi,

Hari-hari kena makan pagi-pagi di kelas before pergi dewan,

Telan dengan air milo~

Depan dia :')

Okay, tamat sesi berangan. -_-"

Tonight got Kelly Clarkson's Concert

All I Ever Wanted Tour

I soooooooooooooo wanna go ! 

:'(

Semua salah Kelly !

Kenapa datang time saya exam ?

Penat saya hafal satu Album lagu lagu awak tau.

Merajuk lah macam ni !

Tak nak kawaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnn. :/

Haha, bangang !

So sad kan Alia Atira ?

Takpe lah, see you in my dreams Kelly Clarkson.

Hmm, now nak sleep.

Kalau boleh lah kan ?

Tata for now, Loves.

P/S: There are 2 words guys hate; Don't and Stop. . . unless those words are spoken together. #ihatequotes
 :DD

I don't want you to see the truth in me

We don't have to be in love

We can just be friends

I will be right there

Beginning to the end.

Missing each one of you

 and all of you

and more of you

 and you too, gang bang!

uhuh, mereka ini juga!

Can't wait for semester break.

P/s : Alia Othman, aku tak boleh nak reply comment kau tah kenapa tah connection kat Johor ni. Lol. Plus, aku rindu kau jugaaakkk !

Aku ada kebolehan luar biasa sebab senang ingat memories. Every inch of it, be it 5 tahun lepas.

Good evening.

Petang yang panas. Tapi today I can still bear with the weather. Less panas than semalam. Still I'm sweating now. Petang ni tak tidur pon. Sebab teruja tadi lepas Hi-tea, balik bilik and terus get online using wireless. Since dia laju, jadi saya pon buka youtube dan dengar lagu lagu. Dah almost 2 hours dengar lagu Do you remember?, now baru beralih arah dengar lagu Baby.

Petang ni nak berceloteh panjang. Nak cerita tentang seseorang. Sekejap ye, nak buka lampu bilik.

Oh, dah pukul 7pm rupanya. Okay.

Cerita bermula. Siapa seseorang ni ? Dia makhluk Tuhan. Rasa macam nak sebut nama, tapi risau nanti menimbulkan isu dengan orang orang yang tak tentu. Manalah tau kan if and only if dia bukak blog aku which I doubt pon. But still, tak perlu kot. Okaylah, nama samaran, S.

S, masa mula mula kenal was my classmate for last semester. Now pon still my classmate and we sorta like bestfriend. Yeke? Entah aku pon tak sure. Mula mula rapat dulu main main je because this one day masa bulan puasa last year I was on my way back from Penawar (clinic in my uni), saya dan farah dan syida terserempak with a bunch of our guy friends. Kebetulan petang tu we're going out for buka puasa at somewhere somewhere with all of our classmates and saja je cakap "I wanna sit beside you lah S nanti masa makan". Padahal tak pernah bercakap with dia pon before, and we did. That was the start.

Entah macam mana boleh rapat and last semester ada lah we stayed up at 24hours room dua orang to study finance, went out for breakfast, dinner and lalala. Aku pon tak pasti mcm mana semua tu boleh terjadi. Tiba tiba during semester break dia diam je. Each time aku text sure busy. Sure sure surely busy lah ! And if aku call pon macam duhhh, aku nak ckp apa je dgn kau? So aku selalu decide baik aku call antara 2 S lagi yang aku ada instead of calling this S. Okay wait, kenapa aku cakap pasal kau ni ??

Ahh, sambung je lah. Bila masuk this semester, aku tak keen sangat pon nak jumpa S ni since masa cuti tak rapat kan, so mesti lah malas. But then first night kat sini aku terserempak dgn dia, masa tu dia nak pergi makan kat cafe lain, aku on the way pergi makan kat tempat lain. Tiba tiba aku tgh duduk nak makan, tersedar yang dia dah ada kat belakang aku. Like seriously terkejut mcm rasa apa kau ni tadi nak makan kat tempat lain apsal dtg sini? Dia kata tiba tiba kawan dia nak makan situ, okay whatever.

Lah, perlu ke aku mengarut benda tu? Haha macam takde motif je apa aku ckp ni? Okay lah sebenarnya nak cerita ni haa. Sekarang kitorang macam biasa lah rapat kat class, after class dia tunggu jap pastu balik pastu makan ke pastu gaduh pastu merajuk ke. Thing is dia ada, hmm okay tiba tiba aku rasa aku tak patut post benda ni. Dah lah aku nak stop je. S, dah lah I don't wanna talk about you anymore. Apa nak jadi jadilah. Kau stay lah dengan kekecewaan melanda kau tu kalau tak nak bagitau yinn sangat kan. About apa yang yinn ckp siang tadi, yinn rasa tak perlu kot tanya kat hati mahupun buah pinggang apatah lagi hempedu sebab benda tu takde isu pon. Merapu je semua tu.

Kalau Jumaat pagi ni kita still balik sama sama kita balik je lah. I'm gonna act cool je, takkan tanya lagi pasal apa apa. Dalam train tu yinn nak jalan jalan je tak nak duduk. You sit alone, and bila dah sampai yinn nak tunggu Encik S yang lebih gila yang suppose to pick me up tu datang okay? 

Adzrin Nadzirah, Diamlah !

I've been thinking about you and how we used to be

There's nothing left to say

Don't waste another day

Do you remember ?

Hello world.

It's been a long time since my last update. How am I coping up ? I'm doing well. Life is okay. Okay, only okay. Not more or less. 

Sekarang rasa macam incomplete. Entah kenapa. Kenapa ? Kalau aku kata aku nak bercinta lagi, orang kata aku gedik. Aku pon tak habis pulih lagi. Belum sembuh sepenuhnya. Kejap kejap toleh belakang lagi. Jadi, takde maknanya kalau aku kata aku nak bercinta pon kan ?

Habis tu aku nak apa ? Apa yang incomplete ? Entah, aku pon tak tau. Nak kata tak ada orang teman aku hari hari, ada je. Still, aku rasa sunyi. Aku nak apa ni ? Nak makan ? Dah cukup bulat dah ni. Aku naik ber kilo kilo kilo, terima kasih. Abang kat kedai Noor Arfa Batik kat Dataran Pahlawan kedai depan mesin timbang tu tau berat aku naik berapa kilo. Dia siap bagitau kawan dia kuat kuat lagi hahaha.

Hmm, this one goes to you.  I know, you'll find me when you need me. Yes, I am always here to listen to you. Glad to see that you're over me while I am still not totally over you. As I told you, secara zahirnya, I am strong but, secara batinnya, belum 100% lagi. When you called and talked about this and that, asking for opinions, telling me this and that, I realized that you're doing very well out there, without me.

I should deeply understand that you need me as your best friend.

God, please take me far away from falling for him again.

Tamat bahagian Emosi.

Final exam is juuuuuuusssssssstttttttt around the corner. Jangan kata lah cuak dia macam manaa. Encik Bud asyik cakap tak boleh jawab test ni tak boleh jawab test tu, aku ni lagi tah macam mana apa nak jadi pon tak tau. Setiap kali test mmg lah cakap okay, tapi setakat Okay je lah kan ? Mak (Suharshafika) , kalau result kami tak mencapai target Mak maafkan je lah ye ?

Persoalan besar dalam hidup saya buat masa ni.

Mampu ke nak dapat Dean's List lagi ?

Mampu ke nak dapat 3.5 and above lagi ?

Semua dah kucar kacir ni. Dengan panas nya, setiap kali tidur dah macam tidur sambil jogging dah. Berpeluh jangan cakap lah. Penat tak habis habis sebab panas. Jangan harap lah nak berjaga dengan tenang waktu siang. Duit, baru dapat 300ringgit dah tinggal 100ringgit. Makan duit ke apa aku ni ? Duit subsidi Uitm bagi dah tinggal 600sen. Makan sangat mahal masa kini. Masalah betul.

Apa lagi aku nak bebel ? Dah lah malas dah sebab aku rasa I will keep on mengeluh je if sambung. Kan? Oh anyway, this Friday I'm coming home. At last, setelah habis sebulan. Nak minta restu from family je, because nak final exam kan.

Tambah sikit, I got backache. Sakit gila tak tau nak describe macam mana sebab tadi keluar from toilet I slipped and almost fell down tapi tangan berjaya tahan daripada my ass terhentak ke bumi. Sebagai result kepada perbuatan itu, tulang belakang sangat sakit.

Okay, I'm off. Bye bye, Loves,